F*ck my veins...

I'm serious.
They f*cked me over today, so heavily... >.<

Remember yesterday where I wrote that my depression came from too much zinc?
Well, I decided to let my blood checked on zinc, copper, vitamin B12 and sugar, just to be sure and make sure that I'm not lacking anything.
So I went to my family doctor last Friday and made an appointment for "today" (or yesterday to be more exact...).
Since I had to be on an empty stomach, I made sure I didn't ate anything 6 hours prior. And since they only can take blood on mornings, I stayed awake for longer then I usually do (I usually go to bed at 6 am, now I had the appointment on 8:30 am).
And as soon as I got dressed to go... my panic of syringes started to hit me.

I really don't handle syringes well.
By the point I was there, I was shaking, my head was spinning and I went through hell.
It's all just in my head. It's a fear I have since I'm little, and that never stopped.

What really doesn't help, is that my veins are usually hard to find and hard to hit (since they often enough roll away from the needle...)
Heck, one time, I got shot 5 or 6 times, until the assistant finally hit my vein, and needless to say that this was the last time I allowed her to try XD (this was at my former family doctor though).
So... this doctor's office has two assistants who're really experienced and great at giving a shot.
The first one searched for a while and given to my state, didn't dared to try and hit my vein blindly (cause she couldn't find it) and called the other one.
The second one searched, got a feint of a vein and gave her best. She hit, but she only got what... 10 ml blood out? Then the blood-flow stopped.
Then the doctor himself came. He searched on the right arm. On the left arm. Even on the hands.
Nothing.
My veins just disappeared completely!

When we finally gave up and ended up home, I was tired beyond believe. It was about 9:15 am. My arm hurt (because syringes always hurt me. Not so bad that the fear is justified, but still). I was frozen and shaken to the bone do to the panic I had... and about 15 mins later, I could see my veins on my wrists again.
.........

Let's hope that those 10, 20 ml are actually enough for at least one test, or the whole ordeal was absolutely useless... <.<


Coming up next (tomorrow I think), some memes